“People are never more insecure than when they become obsessed with their fears at the expense of their dreams.” Norman Cousins
I’m worried about my class. I want to do so well but its so intimidating that i’m scared that i’m going to fuck up. I filmed the majority of the doc today. I’ve been asked several times what its about and this is what i keep just cutting and pasting:
i’m doing a story on a mother and daughter that both work on the same floor at the school of communications building.
mom = maria. immigrant from el salvador. cleaning lady. daughter = ellen. born here. goes to college. works as a receptionist on the same floor as her mother. a lot of talking about generational differences.maria has been here for about 25 years. but is still learning english. and she never went to school. she left el salvador because of the war and used to work in the fields. she came illegally ( the story is wicked. like.. crossing rio grande, going in through houston, walking for days straight ) and then became a citizen.and then the story of ellen. 3rd daughter of the family. first born in US. educated. working. talking about growing up with immigrant single mother for a parent, and the fear of losing that culture and appreciating it. the interviews were mostly based on developing those two characters. B roll film was more just action shots of what they did during the day. i’m shooting more monday and maria is getting me some pics of elsalvador. and the film will most likely be in spanish with subtitles and excerpts from ellen’s individual interview in english.
thats what i always say. but i feel like its so much more then that. i may or may not post my final product up on here. i still don’t know if i want to share.